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became a good dancer and made an expert team with his sister. was therefore in great demand at parties and dances and became socially popular. He even boasted of several girl friends who sin- cerely enjoyed his company. Still, he alone knew that he was poss- essed by a strange desire to read stories wherein some boy or man impersonated a girl, and his heart beat increased violently when he unexpectedly saw in a newsreel a scene showing the antics of the Harvard Hasty Pudding varsity show. At that time he made a promi se to himself that someday he would go to that land of magic where such shows existed. He had subtly tried to bring the subject up in his social circles and met an attitude of total rejection and sneering remarks from everybody. He realized then that it was something not to be advertised, not even talked about--ever. But, this daydream became more vivid, more intense. At 13, he found his first oppor- tunity to try on his first female garment: a discarded rayon slip of his mother's. Behind a rook, by the river, on the outskirts of town, he would sit all alone on warm Summer afternoons and spend hours just wearing that mauve slip over his naked body. He would close his eyes and he became Alice in Wonderland. He would step into a magic mirror and be a girl. On a conscious level he ceased to exist. She, the girl within, took over..and she swore she would go to the USA where trapped girls like herself could assert their right to live.

But not everything was joyous dreaming for this teenage boy. He knew he was different from everybody else and he began to hear that men who dressed like that were "queer". A frantic fear took hold of him. Maybe he was like that and didn't know it. But still, he was baffled by his lack of interest in boys. He did like girls, the prettier the better. He loved their soft skins, their long hair, their pretty clothes.

He felt a thrill every time he put his arm around a girl's slender waist on a dance floor. It didn't make sense. "Those" men didn't like girls. What was wrong then? The Public Library finally gave him the answer in the form of a book translated from the French entitled "Les Desguises" (The Disguised Ones), a study of transvestism by Prof. Pierre Vachè. He went on to assuage his intellectual hunger with Magnus Hirschfeld, Havelock Ellis and others until he was satisfied. He was not one of "thom". His case was different and he was not the only one who felt that way. Even Susanna, cuddled up inside, felt happier. There was no